Lay it down

"I lay it down

I lay it down

I lay it down

at your feet."

- Worship song at IBC

A few weeks ago we worshiped to this song at church, as I was encountering the Lord He continues to speak this things over me. I had no idea what he was calling me to down but to lay down my flesh, my heart, my sin, my fear before his feet. As i left that service He continued to woe me with those lyrics and I still did not understand...until now (and I do not know if i still know why he was) ....

When I think about the idea to lay down, I think about nap time. How my body lays down, my eyes close, my hands release all energy, my legs relax and I am in a place of total surrender to my covers. Some times i cover my face because I don't want light, or I just want to snuggle next to my huggy bear.My body is lighter than it was before. Even though my anxiety may creep in i am at peace in a place of solitude.

Over the past few weeks i have had to lay it down, lay it down, lay it down.To surrender who I am to God who knows me best. I surrender to things i could not change. To surrender to rejection,fear and anxiety. To surrender my flesh and how my heart is a mess without Jesus. To surrender and to lay it down at the feet of our Savior and to leave it there. Remarkably I have then experienced being lighter, at peace, in a place of sweet solitude. So as I continue to lay it down, which im not good at but learning...

I can say:

"I trust you, I trust you, I trust you, and your Will Lord is my desire."